Life is a constant battle... It's a constant change; a mist that appears one day and vanishes the next.
Through the last couple months a lot has changed in my life and it's continuing to change. I'm getting older and even though it doesn't seem possible I'm getting wiser as well. This year feels like it just began but it ceases to be an uphill battle.
-I withdrew from the school that I thought I was going to graduate from.
-I had to say goodbye to my family for 2 months.
-I am soon to quit my job in two months.
-And I'm moving seven hours away from what I have called home for 16 years of my life...
Even though it seems overwhelming at points I am thankful for what God has given me... I REFUSE to sink into the depression that consumes many lives around me. I have many things to be blessed with; I refuse to look at the downs in life and never see the good. I refuse to live this life and not live it to the fullest that God intended it to be. What is life if we just stare at the destruction and occasionally glance at the blessings? We become the depression that entangles our hearts. We are in charge of our emotions; we are in charge of the way certain things change us. We have to change and stare at the blessings and meditate on them and constantly thank God for the good AND the bad. Only glance at the face of your trials and tell them that you have a BIG God. Make them run and hide.
God has given me so much. I have a boyfriend who cares about me and knows how to make me smile when all I want to do is cry. God has shown me that family is everything and without them I wouldn't have anything. I have an amazing church family who supports me. And I have amazing friends that love me and help me stay sane. So I refuse to make my troubles an anchor in my life. I don't want to be weighed down by my troubles. I want to look to God and give Him all I have. And that's what I'm going to do.
What about you?
