Have you ever been in a lousy situation? One that takes you to a place of surrender and you break into pieces as if the glue holding you together just ceased to exist? Maybe you've felt as if everyone had abandoned you and you had no one to turn to for advice or comfort?
And no, I'm not talking about your husband telling you to choose which kind of cake you want for your birthday... It's deeper than that.
A little over two years ago I found myself in the midst of what felt like World War III with my heart. I made the choice to walk away from the only thing that kept me together. I walked away from the old me but more importantly, I walked away from God. I found myself giving into temptations or falling short of who I once was and it happened so fast to where I didn't see it approaching. This weight hit my shoulders and I gave up.
I was in a battle between the old me and the me that I was becoming; I hid it well. Just like all of my problems, I tucked it into my back pocket and forgot about it for days. I just sat there while a war raged in my heart. Was it the fact that I felt helpless? I don't know. I often found myself weeping and asking God why He had left me in the midst of turmoil when in reality, I was the one who walked away.
“Where can I go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence? If I ascend into heaven, You are there; If I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there. If I take the wings of the morning, And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, Even there Your hand shall lead me, And Your right hand shall hold me.”
~Psalms 139:7-10
The Lord doesn't walk away.
When you're in the midst of turmoil, or you feel as if nothing makes sense anymore, God is with you.
He's with you in the grocery store; He's with you when you drop your kids off at the bus stop. He's with you when you don't feel Him at all. He's reaching out for you. He's waiting for you to cry out to Him. He wants you to realize how much you need Him. He is with you in the ICU or when you just don't know what to do. He's also with you when you're making the decision of which cake to eat on your birthday...
Call out to Him and He will catch you.
You can't hide from the Love of God... So run to it.
